Strength

I’m strong now.

From the depth of my soul

To the soles of my shoes.

But sometimes forget

I wasn’t always her.

You see the past is a blur

When you wanna forget

The remaining regrets.

But they fuel me.

These thoughts of time

Forcefully remind

This brain of mine

That there is no going back.

To what once was,

And it’s all because

I gave my all

Just to get here.

When I was lower than dirt

I pushed through the hurt.

Now I know my worth

Cause I fought for this.

But sometimes I forget

And it’s sad but true

That which makes you happy

Can often blind you.

But when it feels good

You shut your eyes

And now you’re surprised

At how you got here.

But It’s different this time

Not the painful kind.

And so this blissful mind

Begins leading me.

To a happy place.

I tried to slow my pace

But reality slipped without a trace

And I don’t know where the time went.

So I remind myself

Of my mental health

And the importance of being quiet.

Attempting to be still,

While chasing the thrill.

I can’t seem to keep my feet on the ground.

I think I’ve I finally found

The source of my chaos.

I hold on too tight

At the thought it might

Not be this way again.

But attachment is pain

So I must remain

And accept the emotions as they come.

When the moment is done

Acceptance has begun.

I can’t start to run

And chase down a feeling.

I must force myself to see

How important it is for me

To breathe in and out.

And don’t forget about

How much I fought to get here.