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The Power of Surrender

Posted on February 1, 2026 by Sabrina Renee

When I was deeply into my spiritual practice, there was a phrase I’d chant to bring me into alignment. I’d light a candle, sit on the cushion in front my my altar, close my eyes and tune in.

“Surrender my ego for my soul’s purpose so that I may receive what’s meant for me.”

It’s been a while since I’ve sat in front of that altar or had a formal practice of any kind since entering motherhood, but that phrase has stayed fresh in my mind. That phrase is the prayer I lean on when I’m expecting maturity or silence from my babies. It grounds me into the understanding that life does not unfold in all the ways I believe it should-that’s the ego talking. Instead, life constantly offers opportunities for me to live purposefully, as long as I surrender my agenda.

This week’s BLOOM theme is all about the expression of the universe through day to day life. I’ve been reading Becoming Supernatural by Dr Joe Dispenza for the 5th time, only this time I’m consistently applying the practices. In just a few days of shifting my attitudes and thoughts about where I’ve been struggling, there have been incredible changes. And I’m not saying these problems have vanished, even more powerful, they’ve stopped being problems!

What stands out as the biggest blessing this week is my will to create change when I recognize it’s necessary. It may not be immediate but when there is an intuitive pull in my life informing me that I’m misaligned, or traveling down a path of fear and doubt, I heed the call. Each time it looks different but this week it looks like practicing a mindset shift during low energy moments, reminding myself that instead of yelling I can speak calmy, instead of silencing the alarm I can whisper “thank you,” as I lift my head off the pillow, instead of stressing about lack of sleep I can remember what a blessing it is to have a healthy vocal baby laying in bed next to me keeping me on my toes. My biggest blessing this week is not just my willingness to do the thing I know needs to get done, it’s the attitude I bring when I decide to show up.

The lesson that’s shining through for me this week is the power of surrender. It’s one of those things that I’ve read about a million times in self-help and personal development books, something I’ve understood and accepted logically for years. However, this week I’m experiencing the results of consistently surrendering the tight and tense feelings in my body for relaxation and calm. Which translates to me noticing that my body is reacting to a negative thought I’m having, which is causing me to contract in my body. Therefore, the lesson I’m continuously learning is the more that I tune in to how I’m feeling the more control I can take over what I’m thinking and guide it where I’d like to go, and choose how I’d like to feel.

The obstacle I’m facing the most this week is my own damn self, more specifically my pride. There are certain ways I’ve expected myself to behave in motherhood, or life in general, that I’ve needed to adjust. It’s easy to have expectations before life actually unfolds and while I know that logically, the emotions of what I believe “should be” occurring can really overpower my senses. And this ties into the lesson of surrender because the tighter I hold onto “the should” the further I become from what is, the more unnecessary stress I create in my world.

As a result of my lesson on surrender and obstacles with pride, the opportunities I’ve been seeking are to change my mindset each time I encounter a negative thought. Which of course first requires noticing my thoughts at all followed by the will to shift it, no matter how strong the current is. This week’s negative thoughts were about the way others were showing up and how frustrated it made me feel. But there’s no use in focusing on what I can’t control, so I sought opportunities to shift my thoughts toward how I could respond rather than react and it helped remind me I have a choice-always.

This week a lot of momentum was being generated toward attracting my highest and greatest good and I’m real proud of that. It takes a lot of work to reprogram my thinking and I’m the only one who can do it, so I’m showing up and it feels good. Momentum looks like waking up to go to the gym after 4 hours of interrupted sleep, choosing kindness over crankiness when I’m running on reserves, pausing during the good moments to soak them in so that the bad moments don’t have as much power over me. Moving into next week I’d like to build on that momentum by planning things ahead of time to bring the energy of preparation, anticipation, and consistency into my days.

Thankful for another week of reflection and intention. Cheers to choosing gratitude and awareness again and again.

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Back in the BLOOM

Posted on January 25, 2026 by Sabrina Renee

It’s the third week of the new year, entering the fourth, and I’ve decided to bring back my weekly BLOOM check-ins. Too many months have passed since I sat down to review my week, reflect on my attitudes, and make a conscious effort to move forward with intention.

Last year was probably the hardest one I’ve lived to date and as a result I ended up in a real dark place. Between being postpartum and grieving my parents there were so many emotions flooding me all the time that I started to avoid them.

My body was withering, my mind was wandering, my soul was whispering for me to come back home. It took months to even hear the whisper but ultimately it became louder than the urge to neglect my needs. So here I am.

It’s officially been 6 weeks since I started taking care of myself again. Going to the gym 3 times a week, waking up early to meditate, reading books about spiritual evolvement, and hydratining more-still not enough water but I’m making progress nontheless.

Now that I’ve built momentum while discovering my identity I’m ready to hold myself even more accountable for my actions, and the best way I know how is to BLOOM weekly.

This week’s intention was clarity.

As I was walking on the treadmill to cool down after my workout Monday morning I asked myself “Okay Sabrina what’s the day looking like?” And it dawned on me that was the first time in a very long time I had really considered how I want to show up in my day.

And I had no idea. I mean aside from the mom responsibilities I tend to daily and the chores at home that need to be done, I didn’t have a focal point for myself-which is the whole point of this journey. I lost myself in my roles and relationships to others, buried so deep I forgot I’m an individual underneath it all.

So I decided to gain some clarity by asking myself some introspective questions and journaling my responses. Writing out answers to questions like “what’s my purpose” and “who do I want to surround myself with” and “what legacy do I want to be remembered for?”, all helped me realize that I wasn’t as far gone as I had thought. I just wasn’t checking in.

The more questions I ask the more clarity I’ll have to take the next step toward who I am becoming. Now on to the important questions.

What was the biggest BLESSING shinning through the week?

My body and all that it’s capable of doing.

This week I was able to increase reps and weight at the gym, something I fantasized about while pregnant with my second son. I couldn’t wait to challenge my body again, do a HIIT workout, practice push-ups and lift heavy weights. I’m so thankful for how far this body has taken me and how far we’re going to continue going.

What was the biggest obstacle on the path this week?

The struggle that kept holding me back was my frustration and lack of patience with my kids. Whether someone was whining or taking a toy from the other, or procrastinating bedtime while sharing stories of their day in jibberish, it all felt really hard to hold. At one point my husband and I couldn’t even have a conversation because the talking/playing/crying was so loud we couldn’t hear each other.

What was the opportunity you sought for healing, growth, or expansion?

Each time I lost my cool, or the few times I caught myself before doing so, I’d notice where I was holding tension in my body and release it. Tight shoulders? Exhale and release. Clenching my jaw? Exhale and release. Even tension I held in thought form tightened my face and when I recognized it I made an effort to let it go. Over and over and over and over again.

What is one way you can build momentum moving into the next week?

I’d like to build momentum toward being a more patient and kind mother, not just when it’s easy. The purpose of my early morning gym and meditation sessions was to refill my cup. It’s been AMAZING to prioritize myself again and now it’s time to practice finding harmony with who I am to others as well.

A simple way to build momentum is to cut the distractions so I can practice presence; finding one on one moments with each of my boys and devoting my undivided attention towards their favorite toy or book. A priceless gift that expands us all.

It feels really good to be checking in with myself today. I hope you carve out the time to do the same ❤️

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It’s Okay to Start Over

Posted on May 21, 2023 by Sabrina Renee

For the past week I’ve been bringing more intention to my day. From noticing what I’m putting into my body, making sure I get outside more often, actually having a meditation practice, hydrating the proper amount for someone who’s breastfeeding.

All of these things I’ve at some point in my life were second nature, some I had even mastered (except for the hydration while breastfeeding) only to be approaching them as a beginner once again. It’s incredibly easy to become overwhelmed with where I want to be, rather than focused on where to start, especially if I’m stuck on how it used to be.

Stuck focused on how well balanced things were, how consistent I once was, how easy some of this used to be. That’s a recipe for never taking a step forward because you’re too busy trying to recreate the past without accepting the present.

The more awareness is brought to my day to day activity the more I need to practice having grace with myself. Because the truth about living an intentional life is that you first have to notice.

Notice what’s working for you.
Notice what’s benefitting you.
Notice where your priorities lie.
Notice the quality of life you are living.

And then own it all.

Taking ownership is avoided by most people because initially it’s terribly uncomfortable. To face all that you are not, all the places you haven’t yet gotten to, all the behaviors you still unconsciously or willingly choose, these are the things that aid to your demise. These are the choices that bring you further from who you ultimately desire to be.

Taking ownership is hard but so is repeating the same loop of patterns that keep you small, frustrated, or stuck. Every road will offer a hard obstacle that needs to be faced. It’s all about deciding which challenge is worth your time, which challenge will you benefit from, which one is hard now but fruitful in the long run.

If these words are tugging at your heart strings, you already know what you need to own up to. Before you talk yourself out of facing the uncomfortable parts of yourself I encourage you to take a moment and reflect. Look back at this moment from the eyes of your future self, the most successful, happy, healthy, loving, and carefree version of yourself.

If that is even too challenging for you PAUSE.
Meet yourself where you are.
Notice any judgment that comes up.
Practice extending some grace and compassion within.
Then take the time to figure out what success, happiness, health, love, and being carefree would mean to you.

Do this over and over and over again. This is intentional living at it’s finest.

Now it could be ten years down the line, 1 year, a month, or maybe even next week. The amount of time doesn’t matter as much as the visualizing itself does. Stand in that future moment and reflect back on this one with gratitude, knowing you’ve made it out of the trenches, started from scratch and built a life you’re proud of.

Stand in the emotional state of what your ideal life feels like. Is it joyous? Content? Fun? Whatever description suits you, practice standing in that feeling. Then ask yourself these three questions:

What behaviors did I let go of to get here?
What thoughts helped me strengthen my self-worth/confidence?
What choices shaped the person I am today?

Let the answers surface organically. Force nothing. Allow your future self to guide you with ease.
The more you practice standing in the moments experienced by your ideal future self, the more clear each of these answers will become.

This week’s insight is that I’m starting over in fitness, nutrition, creativity, being an entrepreneur, all of it. IfI let it, the thoughts on being a beginner will overwhelm me into not taking any action. But I’m reminded that ownership is only uncomfortable initially, if it continues to be it’s because I’m choosing not to move forward.

This week my intention is to move forward with the knowledge I have, standing on the stepping stones of all the times I’ve started over, and allowing ownership be empowering instead of overwhelming.

May you have the courage to move forward even when it’s uncomfortable.

I promise your future self is worth it.

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Start Small. Keep Going

Posted on May 1, 2022May 4, 2022 by Sabrina Renee

It’s May 1st! The sun is shining a little brighter now and it’s also the beginning of mental health awareness month, a perfect time for self-reflection and slowing down. In this blog, I’ll be sharing some unique personal habits and practices that help me keep my mental health at optimal levels.

Please know that these things work for me and may not be your jam. That’s okay, I still want to encourage you to find what works for you. Most of these ideas came after lots of trial, error, guesswork, and being completely burnt out. My hope is to save you time, make you laugh a little, and possibly offer some tips on how to keep yourself sane and grounded.

Check out this 4 minute video on how to treat yourself better.

What to do for the mind

Stillness and stimulation both have their significance and time to shine in my life. This means there are moments I can truly benefit from stilling the muddy water of my thoughts and allowing the inner turmoil I’ve stirred to settle. And it also means there are times when I need to stimulate my mind so it doesn’t fall into unhealthy patterns of thought/belief. Knowing when to meditate or play a video game isn’t an exact science, but there are a few key signs I look for to let me know

Meditation or stillness of some kind is the answer to overstimulation. So if I’ve spent hours around crowds, in front of screens, or even hyper-fixating on activity and losing track of time, I know my mind will benefit from resting. The constant movement becomes so familiar to me that at times stillness feels foreign, even wrong because my mind wants to keep going. That’s a pretty loud sign it’s time to chill, unwind, and decompress.

Stimulating the mind and focusing attention on something creative is the answer when I find myself in repetitive patterns that aren’t getting me anywhere, a long time of focusing only on work tasks, or I’m in a state of boredom. If I don’t redirect myself toward something that will stimulate my mind and give me something that’s interesting, challenging, or solution-based to do, I’ll most likely start moving from autopilot. It’s from this place I lose motivation, binge television shows, and find myself on the internet for hours with no destination.

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What to do for the body

Movement and nourishment are the two choices I’m often neglecting when it comes to taking care of my body. I’ll just throw hydration in with nourishment because not getting enough water could seriously depletes me from the inside out, causing problems with focus and energy.

When I’m not doing yoga, going for walks, or exercising of any kind my mental health begins to decline rapidly. But it’s also really challenging to stay on top of my fitness habits. One of the hacks I’ve found that really improves my mood, elevates my energy, and gets my body moving all at once is dancing. I throw straight up dance parties in my living room when the weather isn’t great for a walk or I don’t have the stamina to work out. Listening to a playlist of my favorite songs through my headphones , or more recently tribal drums, and just letting my body do what it intuitively knows how to do. No judgement, just movement for at least 30 minutes breaks up my day and helps my body stay fluid.

And then there is nourishment, putting healthy food and drink into my body often keeping energy high and lethargy low. Some days I’m at the top of my game, other days I’m struggling to remember to drink more than 8 oz of water. Once the day gets away from me though it’s hard to reign it back in, so my practices start first thing in the morning with a green juice and some water, sometimes tea. My morning is reserved for fruits and veggies only, trying most days to keep caffeine and bread after 12pm. This way I ensure I’m getting nutrients, vitamins and minerals first thing and start my day strong.

Start small with your habits

Taking care of your mental health is a long-term venture that wants you to make tweaks and changes as often as necessary. Whether you incredibly in tune with your mind-body or you’ve begun paying attention for the first time, your efforts toward wellness are like deposits into your future. Keep going, keep figuring out what works, let go of what doesn’t, and remember the point is to improve your mental state not add chaos to it .

Here is a list of simple small habits to either start paying attention to or begin implementing to improve your mind-body wellness:

Notice your mood today.
Sit in a sun spot to recharge.
Dance your stress away.
Look up at the sky and take a break from working.
Take a walk.
Drink water.
Journal your thoughts.
Be still in your body.
Pause for a deep breath.
Notice how your body feels.
Read a book that captivates you.
Find a podcast that keeps you interested.
Say some affirmations in the mirror.
Have a cup of tea.
Clean or organize your clutter.

Let’s Recap

This blog is a quick glimpse into my small habits that help maintain optimal levels of mental and physical wellbeing. It’s not about having the perfect health and doing the “right thing” when it comes to your mind-body wellnes.

So whether you have been on top of all your mind-body needs, or you’re just becoming aware of how to take care of yourself, small habits lead to big changes. It’s the consistency of self-awareness and deliberate action that builds the momentum toward the changes you want to create.

Practicing self-awareness and observing your behavior are active steps toward growth and healing. You can accomplish anything you put your mind to, just remember to focus on what can be done today while connecting to the bigger picture of tomorrow.

Start small, keep going, make your mental health a priority today.

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October 26, 2020

Posted on December 16, 2020 by Sabrina Renee

**Actual footage of the what waking up symptom free after 6 weeks looks like.**

After last week’s migraine scare I made an appointment with a medicine man. It’s something I felt called to do since about September, a card reading I did on Youtube prompted it initially. Something about a health scare coming up soon. That’s when I changed my diet, cut back on caffeine and bought the Cleanse To Heal book by medical medium. I told myself to have no expectations about what would come from this appointment, just that I would remain open and listen.

I put my mask on and walked in. He had me stand by the door until he put his on, what a weird fucking world we live in right now. Looking around at the shelves filled with dozens and dozens of herbs, powders, and mixtures that he prescribes, I already felt better. I chose a medicine man because the last doctor had me on migraine pills indefinitely. Fuck that. I respect that for some people that’s the route to take but I’m not one of those people.

After that appointment I decided to look into more traditional ways of healing, in February I took a book out of the library on the 5 Elements of Self-Healing. Soon after the quarantine began and I ended up keeping the book until the summer, taking notes and learning an introduction of some of my ailments.

He looked at my tongue and in less than 3 seconds told me I had been through some serious trauma throughout my life. By the rhythm and heartbeat within he could tell I’m stressed because I don’t take deep breaths. He found a cyst, discovered my liver needs to be cleansed, and that I’ve been having gut and digestive issues.

The brainfog I had attributed to being an airhead was actually an ailment I’d been suffering for years, along with the anxiety and stress I had normalized. Trying to somehow save face for my physical condition I told him about my dietary and lifestyle changes, how I’m moving my body, drinking water, cut out alcohol, meditating. But he said the trauma, anger, fire had been within me too long and began to compromise my organs-hence the continuous migraines even when I’m not eating trigger foods.

He broke down some technical stuff about the body, and how Chinese medicine sees organs as different types of life force with deep purpose. My poor body. She’s been a victim of my thoughts for so many years and is paying a brutal price. This is going to take serious daily commitment and that scares me. I’ll be doing 6 months of herbal medicine and acupuncture with him, that’s not what scares me.

What scares me is changing my mindset, my habits, my choices, because they directly impact my family. Speaking my mind where I’ve been taught to bite my tongue. Live a truth that’s awkward and uncomfortable. Taking space for myself, to begin a life separate from them so that I can rebuild our connection. I’m scared for what this will mean for the business I’ve put on hold to heal. I’m unsure of who I am without these ties I’m tethered to and what the coming undone process will look like. I’m fearful of standing fully in my truth.

I’m excited for what this means for my health and wellbeing. For the kind of wife I can be when I’m fully healthy and the home I can build for us. I’m looking forward to eating the nourishing foods and hydrating tonics that heal the insides before they manifest on the outside. I’m thankful for my mindful practice and for the clarity I’ve already been experiencing since embracing the truth. I can’t wait for the brain fog to go away so I can see the world as it is, without the blinders of my own limits and traumas.

I feel so much right now, but mostly I’m just happy to be writing again. And getting a life.